Been a few days over a year...

Hey all.  Back again.

I have been kind of off since my last blog posts hereabouts.  My life has been either in major upheaval or a repetitive rut in the time since - neither of which is particularly conducive to writing posts for this blog.

Oddly, the hypnokink side of my life has continued to go very well.  It seems my energy for sex blogging comes from having things other than sex and kink going well for me.

OK, the major updates:

• Daja - whom I mentioned in a previous post - has become my girlfriend and my submissive/pet.  She and I are quite head-over-heels in love with one another, and she has made my life so much better.  
• Nine and I are still going strong.  We've had to re-negotiate a relationship thing or two, but we're still boyfriend and girlfriend and still doing well.  
• Grayson broke up with me a while back  (about a month after my last blog post, actually).  We parted on amicable terms and are still friends.  
• Obtuse Acutie and I re-negotiated, and our relationship is now in a far more nebulous place - we have both changed and grown to the point where a boyfriend/girlfriend label on the relationship felt off. 

On a note more related to sex blogging - I am now being blogged about even as my own blogging is hitting a turning point: 

• sleepingirl posted another scene log about me a ways back.  It's pretty good, and a scene that I personally treasure the memory of.  
• Ms. Mesmer has also written a few awesome scene logs about me.  
• Serena, who has become my submissive in the time I haven't been blogging, also has a blog, and I am the only person she has so far written about scening with.  
• And of course, my beloved Daja posts about me here and there.  

As you'll see if you decide to check out Ms. Mesmer's and Serena's blogs, I've suddenly gotten quite into bimbofication, despite noting at an earlier time that it's not my favorite thing.  That'll merit a blog post at some point, if I can get myself to write it.  (I've actually written it, more or less, but I am not happy with it yet.)

I have also started writing fiction!  Simply put, writing scene logs has lost a lot of its appeal to me.  There are some amazing scenes that I have had that I would still like to put down on paper some day, or at least hot moments.  For now, however, I will dedicate myself a bit more to fiction, because I am feeling very inspired in that direction.

This blog will still be around, and I intend to post a few times!  Partly because I'm dying to write up some commentaries for the aforementioned fiction.  And who knows...maybe the scene log bug will bite me again. :)  

Trance Duel

This scene log comes from my escapades in the Hypbook chatroom, involving chat regulars (and my friends) Solarrianne, Skyla, and my pet Daja.  

Content: D/s, switch fight, resistance play

A Losing Battle

Here's a scenelog written up by my boyfriend, Grayson. Nine declared it the hottest thing she's ever read. I happen to like it a lot, and hope y'all do, too.

Content: m/m, D/s, humiliation and degradation, chloroform roleplay via hypnotic suggestion, hypnotic subspace, impact play, hair pulling, freezing.  

Just a brief announcement

I'm going to be at NEEHU 4. 

I'm actually on the panel for a discussion on queer issues.

It'll be great to see the friends I met last year again, as well as seeing sleepingirl in person for the first time. 

And yeah.

I'm really excited and just putting up this post so that I will have made a post about it. :)

Spiral Turquoise's Counting Game

There's this game I play when I'm topping for impact play.  Nine, Grayson, and Sam all agree that it is completely wonderful and that I should do it pretty much whenever we play.  Kenji and Petal, after the first time they watched me play with Nine, complimented me upon how delightfully nasty it is. 

I call it Spiral Turquoise's Counting Game.

Because I'm egotistical like that.  

The game is simple:

The top has at least two different impact implements.  They should be distinctive from one another for some reason or another; perhaps one is stingy and the other thuddy, perhaps one is flexible and the other is rigid, perhaps one is thin and the other is wide. (Combinations that I like using: wood paddle/belt, wood paddle/crop, dowel rod/glowstick, rubber paddle/dowel rod)  

The bottom must then count the blows - keeping a separate count for each implement.

The game continues until the bottom makes a mistake on either count, or until a pre-arranged minimum count has been reached. The bottom receives a punishment (in the form of a flurry of had strikes, too quickly to count easily; or a switch to a different implement; or some other punishment), and likely also verbal degradation (if the bottom enjoys name-calling and humiliation, their failure to count higher is good material for indulging that kink).

The top can increase the difficulty and disorientation of this game by keeping track of the bottom's particular counting abilities.  I have found that keeping the numbers close to one another (8 strikes with the belt, followed by 7 strikes with the paddle, followed by another 4 with the belt) adds to the confusion, although a particularly long series of strikes with one implement can also obscure the memory of the other implement's count. Quickly switching, or varying the length of time between switches, can also increase the difficulty. 

If the bottom becomes particularly adept at the game, a third implement can be added to further increase the difficulty.

The goal of the game is to create a situation in which the bottom either cannot win, or can only win with great concentration and effort.   The disorientation provides a challenging mental exercise, while the nearly inevitable failure condition creates an opportunity for humiliation play.  A pre-agreed number of correctly counted strikes can yield rewards for the bottom; perhaps the bottom gets to enjoy their favorite sex act if they can successfully count to 30 on one implement.  (That said, even reaching the 20's has been incredibly difficult for everyone that I have played this game with.)   

Multilingual bottoms can decrease the difficulty by switching languages (Grayson has found that he lasts longer when he counts one implement in English and the other in Korean).  Tops who do not speak the relevant language should pay close attention, listening for repetitions, hesitations, or other signs that may indicate failure.

Now, clearly, this is not a game to play with bottoms who don't like the feeling of failure, or who have bad associations with frustrations.  This is primarily for bottoms who enjoy a mental challenge or who enjoy struggling only to fail; extra bonus for bottoms who enjoy being humiliated, degraded, reprimanded, and insulted for a quantifiable failure. 

Miscellaneous Updates

I haven't updated since the last day of August of last year.  That's...um...wow. Almost half a year.

Sorry!  I swear, I have been really busy.  My life's gone through several shifts and changes recently.


I'll start with the big stuff:

• I am now in a three-person relationship with Nine and another woman, Obtuse Acutie.  One of the things delaying my blog posts has been my perfectionism regarding a blog post about the three of us meeting in person for the first time.  We have established a polyamorous relationship which is open on all sides.
• I have a boyfriend, Grayson.  He's a cute little guy who is big into beatings and humiliation.  He's written up a log of one of our scenes, which I will post on the blog soon.  
• I've moved!  I am currently in yet another city, which shall remain unnamed, but it means that I now have regular access to a dungeon (which is where I met Grayson).  This is cool.  It means that I am now very far away from Nine and Acutie, but, we are staying in touch quite well via Skype.  
• At this point, my list of play partners tops out around a dozen total, although my constant changes in location mean that I can only rarely play with most of them in person.  
• For that matter, I have not had as much time for playing online lately.  This is unfortunate, but, what can ya do.

Aannnnddd I think that's the big important stuff.  I will definitely get Grayson's post up quite soon (he has requested that I give it a once-over edit),  and after that I will theoretically either finish the aforementioned perfectionist post about Acutie and Nine, or do a series of short vignettes from recent scenes that I have had. 

Spiral's Mantra Mad Libs!

So...here's a little thing I do whenever I negotiate with a new subject.

I love love looooove mantras, and I also love to cater my sessions to the preferences of the hypnotee.  So I always try to find or create a mantra that they will love, while determining what kinds of secondary mantras they would enjoy.

The format of these mantras inspired their name - Mantra Mad Libs. :)


Fill in the following sentence:

"I am a/an [adjective] [noun]."


In place of [adjective], choose one (or two) of the following:

• mindless
• helpless
• submissive
• obedient
• docile
• compliant
• pliant
• blank
• empty-headed
• programmed
• brainwashed
• enchanted 
• powerless

[For added fun, "helpless" can be adverb-ized as "helplessly," and thrown in front of one of these words.  Or another word, such as "horny"...]

In place of [noun], choose one of the following:

• puppet
• doll
• toy
• fucktoy
• plaything
• pet
• thrall
• slave
• slut
• bimbo
• drone
• robot
• automaton
• zombie

Then I add on a few other mantras that don't follow the pattern, to see if any catch the potential hypnotee's fancy:

• "I am helplessly hypnotized"
• "Obedience is pleasure, pleasure is obedience"
• "You control my mind, you control my body"
• "I have no will, I must obey"
• "I must obey my Master"
• "My mind is empty"
• "My mind is blank, I must obey"

There are a few themes repeated here...but then, fetishes do tend to be a little repetitive. :) 

I am very happy to take any suggestions, and will probably update this one a few times in the future with any new ones I remember, come up with, or come across.