Online Sessions, from the Subjects' Viewpoint

Those of you who also follow sleepingirl's blog, you've probably noticed that she just posted an account of our first private play session.  Her writing is hot, the session was good, and if you follow this blog then you probably care about reading about me.  Especially from the other side's point of view! 

And all of those things apply to what else I'm posting - Sluggish Twitch's account of our first play session (and her first time being hypnotized)!  So I'm going to bow out, and allow you, dear reader, to read what both Twitch and sleepingirl have to say about me.

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I'm a Transformer! XD

Hai! Okay so this is my account of being hypnotized for the first time. Thank you Spiral, btw!

Okay, so starting out I wasn’t exactly sure if I was going to be able to go under, but boy am I glad I did! The induction was completely and totally relaxing. See watching the videos and things online and seeing the inductions, I always wondered what the person was feeling when they were told to sleep and their head just slumped. It was a part that honestly fascinated me, to just see them instantly slump. So when he told me to sleep, and my head slumped…it was awesome. Haha. I’m just so giddy at how instantly it happened. Being in the trance was so euphoric. Like nothing I’ve ever experienced. I was diagnosed with ADD, so my mind is constantly jumping back and forth from one topic to the other. I’m surprised I don’t have a permanent “TILT” sign on my forehead. But in this blank, mindless state, it was so calming. I was completely relaxed. He and I had talked about different things that interested us, and the robot stuff REALLY interested me. That and the freezing, mantras, I saw him do a call and response with another lady, which peaked my interest. I had a friend there with me, kind of like a security blanket. It aided in helping me feel safe and relaxed, so I was able to feel more comfortable.

I don’t think I’ll do a play by play run-through. But I’m definitely going to talk about the experience as a whole, and highlights. :D Some of my favorite times were when I was the robot. That’s something that’s super sexy to me, so it was QUITE enjoyable. The deeper I went in, the more like a robot I became. I noticed my own voice becoming monotone and robotic, noticed my movements changing. It was quite the fun experience. I liked the mantra bit, as well. It helped me really relax more and helped me become more obedient, and willing to obey commands. I also like the responses I was told to give, as well. “Yes, master.” “I hear and obey.” ^.^ Describing the feeling of going in and out of being a robot to being April was…so neat. When I was April, and my robot self was activated, it felt like…like if I were full of sand and all of it just drained out like sand draining from an hour glass, but not as slow. My whole body was tingling, relaxed, blank, when my robot self was activated. We did some call and response, which was SUPER hot for me. It also helped me go deeper into trance. I really enjoyed being commanded to do certain movements. At one point I was allowed to be aware of everything that was going on while in my robot state, and not just the mindless state of mind. Which was really great, being aware of what I was doing, but unable to stop myself. Doing movements and things, but not being able to stop myself. That feeling was so niiiiiice.

Which brings me to another one of my favorite parts of the evening. Freeze! Lol. During the times when I was April he had me freeze at different points, in the middle of doing different actions. At one point he caught me in the middle of licking my lips. Haha. He allowed my friend to move my limbs to put me into different poses while I was frozen. (Like picking my nose! Haha.) There was also the time-stop bits. Which are quite amusing. Similar to freeze, but I had no idea how long I had been frozen, and had no recollection (at the time) of what had happened while frozen, but yet still able to be posed. Those were fun. ^.^ My friend definitely had a grand time during those moments. One minute I was sitting on the couch, the next I was standing up. Haha. Talk about interesting! It was like I was a life sized, plus-sized Barbie doll. Oh! Another one of my favorite moments while being April was one of the freeze moments…I was told to freeze, and he left me like that for a few while he talked to my friend. Oh boy! :D Quite enjoyed that one.

He did some triggers that would make me feel like my hair was being pulled just the way I like it, and one that when spoken would make me feel a cut being done on a part of my body. Both of which are HUGE turn ons, for me. :D After everything that happened that evening, it was safe to say that I was thoroughly satisfied with my first session.

From a mental stand point it was so great to be able to just be a shell, completely submissive and willing to obey. Which is not something that I usually am. I love the helpless feelings I had during certain parts. There are still parts of the session that I just can’t seem to recall, but I’m okay with that. I just loved the being aware while in the robotic state. That feeling of obedience…and knowing that even had I not wanted to do it I was going to do it anyway because that was the command given. Granted I wanted to do those things, but still. There was a definite…I guess…I don’t know how to put it..Directive? Desire? Not sure on the correct word, but I just wanted to please, and to be obedient, and do exactly what I was told to do. Hearing “Good girl” or “Good robot” was exhilarating.

Afterwards, when I was brought out of trance I felt as giddy as a fat kid in a candy shop with a free pass to everything. Thoroughly enjoyed that session, and hopefully there will be more to come! I’m definitely planning on learning how to do it, as well. :D During the whole session I felt tingly all over. Even afterwards. I can’t properly describe the uplifted feeling that I’m still feeling the effects of. Wee! XD

Updates in the Life of Spiral

Hi all!

I've learned a very valuable lesson: declaring what I'm going to blog about next does not, in fact, increase my productivity.  The opposite, in fact, as it keeps me from posting things that I am actually inspired to post.

This was the case with the promised post about my scenes at the play party following my most recent hypnosis demonstration.  I procrastinated, didn't have the energy, or didn't have the time, for several weeks; then, I got further behind because there were other posts that I wanted to write, but I didn't want to upset the chronology.  And now, I am confident that I will not be able to write that post any time soon.  I hope to cover those scenes someday, but it won't be able to for a while. 

That said, I have a whole lot of other things that I do want to blog about.  And I'll be talking about some of them now!  And it'll be awesome!  And chronological order will be going right out the window. :) 

One thing to talk about is that I've recently reached a rather cool milestone: I have hypnotized 50 different people so far!  This counts any hypnosis sessions that I have done in person, by phone, by voice chat, or by video chat.  Video chat has been the medium I have used most often lately - my schedule is leaving far too little time (at least for my liking) to hypnotize people in person, while I have found my video chat schedule more flexible. 

With that said, I am going to use the rest of this post to talk a little about my current group of online partners, all of whom are very cool people! And also about another truly wonderful addition to my life: my new girlfriend, Nine. 

Georgie/Sam: Georgie has requested that, from here on out, I refer to him as Sam, which is the name he currently goes by in all contexts.  "Georgie" was a name that he found useful for a while, but it is no longer a good name to use for him.  Anyway, Sam and I have stayed in touch even though we currently live in different states.  We've recently begun playing online by voice chat, and it's quite good! 

Pet Ferret: I've also been keeping in touch with Ferret!  Pet Ferret has come out as genderqueer, and as such uses xe/xir for pronouns now.  Xe and I have played over video, and over text, and it's been cool!  Xe still preens with pride that my post about xir is the most well-received one that I've written.  :)  And we also talk pretty much non-stop via IM and text about awesome nerdy things and random funny things (usually things that involve copious usage of the words "cock" and "vagina"). 

Sluggish Twitch: Twitch is a completely awesome lady that I encountered in a Fetlife chatroom.  She's a gorgeous nerdlady who likes Freakazoid, and Transformers, and Batman.  She also has a robot fetish that lines up with mine exactly.  So she and I do a ton of robot play, and her robot voice is really excellent, and her robot posture is even hotter.  She's also learning hypnosis herself!  I'll probably post an account of one of our scenes that she wrote up for me.

Sacred Lioness: Sacred is another lady I met in the same chatroom as Twitch!  She is a fantastic subject who blanks out very hard.  She freezes so well that I have to remember to give her the suggestion that she's allowed to blink!  She's up there as one of the most naturally susceptible hypnotees that I've worked with.  She also works with another hypnotist, and has gotten to explore the fetish from playing with me, playing with him, and watching me play with Twitch.  On a few occasions, I've scened with her and Twitch at the same time, and it's been grand!  

sleepingirl:  sleepingirl is a rather awesome lady who burst onto the Fetlife Erotic Hypnosis group a few months back, making a lot of topics, but not looking for partners or friends.  As such, I did not approach her at the time, although she seemed cool.  Rather, she approached me, because she read my blog and thought I was cool.  Since then, we've started playing a lot, and flirting even more often.  She enjoys humiliation, and teasing, and I make sure she gets her fill of each any time she scenes with me.  It helps that the toy/puppet/doll language that I enjoy so much happens to push her humiliation buttons HARD.  She runs her own hypno-sex blog over at sleepingirl's blog (linked over on the sidebar on the right!), which has some astoundingly sexy writing.  She's got a blog post or two about me coming up soon, as well...keep an eye out for them. :)

Sarona Silverwolf: Gee, my list of online partners has quite a bit of alliteration...anyway!  Sarona is another lovely lady, who in fact looks so much like Pet Ferret (well, their eyes look very different, but) that I did a double-take upon seeing her on cam for the first time.  Well, since then, Pet Ferret has cut xir hair into a mohawk and dyed it "flamingly homosexual" in xir own words, so the resemblance is less strong.  BUT ANYWAY, Sarona had a fair amount of hypno-kink experience.  She has a little trouble accepting triggers, but I've been working with her and have had more success getting them to stick.  :)  My scenes with her mostly focus on blank-and-happy kind of feelings, with some mild pleasure, and they're very relaxing to do.  She also has a boyfriend that she does hypnosis play with, and I get to watch the two of them play on occasion!

Scaramouche Black: The lucky #50 herself, Scaramouche is my most recent play partner.  She's tremendously charismatic, and enjoys a good blanking, and we're looking forward to doing some role play and bodily transformation suggestions.  


Playing so much online has gotten my creativity working.  I've developed several signature hypnotic routines as a result!

• Puppet Strings: The hypnotee feels marionette strings all over their body, and feels limp and loose and totally supported and held up by those strings.  The strings then move their body into position in order to obey any orders I give.  All agree that it's a fascinating sensation, and very fun to experience.  It even has a little bit of bondage undertone, which is appreciated by many.
• The Three Pronged Hypno Beating:  Mentioned in the last post, the Three Pronged Hypno Beating involves a trio of hypnotic triggers - one for a flogger across the back, one for a spanking on the rear, one for candlewax anywhere the hypnotee likes it.  It's a favorite of all the masochists!  Sam and Sacred like the flogging in particular.  I can switch up the specific sensations to a hypnotee's preference, but this particular trio is the one I've adopted as my standard. 
• Inevitable Mantra: Upon hearing a trigger word, the hypnotee feels a compulsion to say a mantra out loud ("Obedience is pleasure" is the one I usually use).  The compulsion gets stronger until they say it.  As soon as they say it, they feel a wave of blankness and mindlessness and bliss wash over their mind, making them feel more obedient and docile afterward.  Since following a posthypnotic suggestion involves going into trance, this also means that any pleasure triggers that I use immediately afterward become much stronger!  Which is handy. :)

Perhaps the most important and cool change in my life is that, as of today, I now have a girlfriend!  I will be referring to her on this blog as Nine.  Nine is an anomaly among people I've played with, in that she is not into hypnosis.  In fact, she is rather squicked by the idea of being hypnotized.  Rather, Nine is an asexual masochist.  When I met her, she was looking to try out impact play, protocol, and role play with D/s dynamics.  I grew to have a very strong affection for her, and we tried tying each other up at a local event on bondage.  Afterward, I asked if she wanted to get together for bondage practice sometime, to which she said yes.  Then, I asked if she would like to do some impact play while we did so...and she was incredibly excited at the prospect.

My affection for Nine is such that I rejoice whenever I can make her happy, and I can do that by hitting her (safely!) and dominating her in our role plays. Our interpersonal relationship is very important to me, and I've found that I utterly adore our impact play sessions (both for the euphoric joy that it brings her, and for the visceral, physical joy of hitting someone until I'm tired). She is a wonderful part of my life, and I'm proud to be her boyfriend and her impact play top. 

We're also fully polyamorous, though.  Meaning that I'm still scening with all of the above people, and some in-person play partners, and other people that I've met online.

Nine has her own blog, Lyrical Agony, also linked on the sidebar on the right.  Her writing is quite fascinating! 

Life is good! 

Demo Recap!

So! As I stated in my last post, I was invited to perform an erotic hypnosis lecture/demonstration for my local kink community. It was an absolute blast. :)

A few things were different this go-around. Neither of my demo-bottoms was comfortable demonstrating a hypnotic orgasm on stage (AKA the most iconic/popular erotic hypnosis trick); so I had to come up with other impressive things to show off (which I think worked out for the better, really!). And, while I had the better part of two hours to do my previous demo - I had about 45 minutes to an hour for this one. I stressed a lot about the small amount of time, but it was really not a problem at all - I was able to get a lot in, and the demonstration portion was particularly excellent!

Being short on time, I was sure to hit as many high points as I could. I went for more of an informational lecture for the most part. I covered the whole what-is-hypnosis spiel, did some myth-busting (it's handy that so many people ask me so many questions, I have a good sense of what people want to know and what they think they know).

I particularly tried to focus on things that hypnosis is notably good for - role play, binding people when you don't have rope on hand, freezing in place, enhancing sensitivity, sensations on command, feeling a loss of control...that sort of thing. I didn't get as many questions as last time, which is good, because at my last demo I went so far over time that it was ridiculous (but enjoyed and appreciated by that audience, though).

The demonstration part began with Lovely Petal. I froze her, and posed her amusingly. It's definitely handy to have a hypnotee who can freeze her facial expressions...it's a better convincer for the audience than almost anything else I could show. :) I also gave her a little bit of hypnobondage (rope is big in the community, so it seemed like the ideal thing to show off). Had her bound in an X-like position, and tickled her a little. And then I released her and she shook her arms and stamped her feet while smiling at me.

I then brought up someone that I had not worked with before - Calluna. Like the last demo, I felt that it was handy to demonstrate with someone who was new, both to "prove" the reality of what I did and to show the entire process in a genuine way complete with on-the-fly renegotiation and adjustments. She and I had negotiated beforehand, but that was about all the prep work I had done.

So I put Calluna under using the Elman induction, and she responded very well to the relaxation parts. I then did the suggestion she was most interested in: a little routine I've been calling my Three Pronged Hypno Beating. :) It consists of three post-hypnotic triggers: one for feeling a flogger across the back, one for feeling a hard spank, and one for feeling hot wax. For each of these sensations, I told Calluna that she would feel them exactly as she liked them - she would feel the wax in her favorite spots, she would feel the flogging exactly as she likes it, and she would feel the spanking at exactly her favorite intensity.

Well...Calluna is a switch. More to the point, she is a Sadist, and yes the capital S is intentional. So when I used the flogging trigger, she instead felt as though her shoulder was sore from flogging someone for an hour. XD As she put it later: switch problems!

The other two triggers worked great, though! She felt the wax on her feet (a few people in the audience oohed and said that they needed to try that), and the spanking trigger made her jump in her seat. After using both of those triggers, she curled up (after feeling the wax again), looked at me, and said, "I can hit you back for real, you know..."

After that, I checked that she was doing OK and comfortable with everything. Then I put her back under, cleared the triggers, and wrapped up my presentation.

There was a play party afterward - and I got some trancing done at that, too, although with other awesome people. That'll be in my next post!

I had a lot of people come up to me afterward to rave about it! Apparently I had good stage presence (I've had a LOT of public speaking practice). Some people even called it the best demo that they've seen in that space! I'm very flattered and thankful that people enjoyed it so much.

Demo Announcement, and Thoughts on Hypnotist's Trance

Hi all! I've been not-posting for far longer than I'd have liked, and would really like to get back on track.

The most exciting news right now is - I'm doing another hypnosis demo! This one is going to be for my current kink community, with Lovely Petal as my assistant and demo bottom, and it will be one year to the day of my last hypnosis demo (February 11). I am extremely excited for this!

Alongside that news, I thought I'd throw in some thoughts on hypnotist's trance.

It is said - often - in the erotic hypnosis community that any hypnotist worth his salt will go under themselves while hypnotizing somebody. That said, this phenomenon is frequently mentioned only in passing, without any kind of description of what it's like. Alert EMCSA readers will occasionally see it portrayed by the writers who really know what they're doing - Jukebox has worked the phenomenon into a few of his stories, sometimes implicitly and sometimes explicitly.

Since I like to fill in gaps I see in the info out there on hypno-domming, I thought I'd throw in my own experience of hypnotist's trance - especially since I am often asked what I am getting out of hypno-play as the dom, and really, this is a huge part of the answer to that.

When I am hypnotizing somebody - my world closes around the two of us. My focus shifts entirely to the person I'm working with. My brain, my mouth, my voice, even to some extent my eyes - these all go on autopilot. My voice becomes soft, seductive, and soothing. My thoughts become entirely fixated on the other person, and I feel wrapped in the exhilarating feeling that there is nobody else in the world except the two of us, that nothing else in the outside world matters - all that matters is this one erotic, beautiful moment between us. For the entire induction process, I act rather than think - I smoothly shift my brain and transform into a well-oiled hypnotizing machine, able to rattle off all of my stock inductions, becoming so finely attuned to my hypnotized partner that I automatically adjust any time one of my methods is clearly not working, or whenever I know of a method that I'm sure will work even better. The trial and error inherent in sussing out the best way to work with somebody flows together into one continuous process.

(This is yet another reason why negotiation is so all-important - I need a plan beforehand, and while I remain in control enough to avoid things that I know are pitfalls or bad areas for my partner, I nonetheless need some guidance so that I can set up a framework prior to entering this autopilot state.)

There's a major ego trip involved, obviously - those feelings of omnipotence, isolation, and power all feel great.

I've definitely done hypnosis sessions where I haven't entered this state as strongly - where I've had more awareness of the world around me (usually by necessity - gotta account for these things even as I'm making sure that they don't interfere with the session), where I've been distracted by other things, where I've had to take a step back and re-adjust because none of my approaches have been working.

But when I do a well-negotiated hypnosis session with somebody, where I know what to do and how to do it beforehand - where I'm able to let go, let that person become my entire world, let myself ride the rush that I get from making it all happen and feeling my voice smoothly shift gears to handle the situation -

That is just a sample of what I'm getting out of hypno-domming.

Roleplaying in the Dungeon with Lovely Petal

After a smashing first session, Petal and I of course arranged for another. This time, each of us wanted to explore a specific role play suggestion - I suggested a little robot play, and Petal was interested in being hypnotized to shamelessly flirt with me. We had a few other things on our to-do list, but that was the main thrust of it.

Let's just say that the results were fascinating. Also: sexy.

Her first request was that she call me "Master" for this session. Well...I decided to be mischievous with this one. After putting her under (I may have accidentally clinked her glasses with my pocket watch in the process, thereby embarrassing myself mightily?), I gave her the suggestion that she would feel compelled to say "Master" at the end of every sentence - and that she would not remember this suggestion, but she would notice it once it happened. So I woke her up:

Spiral: So! How're you feeling?
Petal: I feel good. ...Master. *looks surprised and bemused*
Spiral: Notice anything different?
Petal: I see you've given me some suggestions. ...Master.

This put her in a really nice, subby headspace for the entire session - that constant reminder of submission had her feeling "like a pet," in her own words. :)

I then ran through a lot of physical domination suggestions, interspersed with freezing and Mind Tricks. At one point, I jerked her head back by the hair while placing my hand threateningly over her throat. She instantly dropped into a dreamy, subby headspace, and asked if I had planted any suggestions to make that happen. I replied honestly that I did not - I just remembered what she likes!

This suggestion remained active for the whole session, which was VERY interesting when we did the "shameless flirting" scene. This scene involved giving Petal suggestions that she would feel very aroused, very flirtatious, very bold, and more aggressive than usual. (Interestingly, her speech patterns became very formal under this suggestion - she noted afterward that most of her concept of flirting is largely influenced by Victorian romance novels, and it showed a little.) Anyway, the scene began with Petal coming on to me, offering to serve me...and me teasing back. Leading to this:

Spiral: And what will you do if I refuse?
Petal: Well, I am a switch, Master. *looks at me with an amused but challenging gleam in her eyes*
Spiral: Oh? *grins evilly, totally running into what comes next* And how do you propose to dominate me, then?
Petal: *suddenly, fluidly gripping my long hair and yanking my head back forcefully* I suppose I'd use some of the same techniques that others use to dominate me, Master...

Uh, that was really freaking HOT. Georgie had tried pulling my hair a while back, but backed off when Eve felt that my reaction indicated that I wouldn't enjoy it. As is, I didn't enjoy it much then, but I loved it this time. Petal experimented with my long locks at a slosh (about a month afterward), and discovered that the issue is that I like a very small amount of my hair being firmly gripped, but really dislike having a larger amount grabbed (in the latter case, my absurd sensitivity comes into play and it feels acutely uncomfortable). So, having the perfect hairstyle for hair-pulling isn't completely wasted on me!

The flirt scene continued - I escaped her hair pulling by freezing her, and proceeded to tease her a little more, with Mind Tricks and freezes that foiled her attempts at dominating me. I also pointed out that she was going to have a hard time taking control as long as she kept calling me "Master," which caused her to mock-pout at me because she could not stop.

I snapped her back to normal soon enough, and we had a fun discussion on some of the surprising turns her behavior took under the suggestion. :)

At this point, I re-established my pocket watch's ability to trap her mind and turn her into an empty shell. This would activate any time my watch was opened. I then left the watch out of the way on the same table where we kept our huge glasses of water...which meant that, when we took a water break, she inadvertently looked at it, trailed off in mid-sentence, and reverted to a mindless state. Would have been extremely hot if I'd planned it that way.... :) As is, it was a funny moment between friends. I shall have to be more careful in the future about stuff like that.

The robot scene was also very enjoyable. Petal naturally slipped into a stilted-but-still-monotone robot voice (pretty much exactly the level of stilted-ness that I like!), and I played around with a speech button ("I am a mindless robot" on her belly button), some call-and-response programming, and playing with her unreacting and obedient robot self.

The neatest part of this, though, was the post-scene discussion. Since the two states have similar effects (IE emotionless total obedience), I asked Petal how the robot state differed from the empty shell state. She replied that in the shell state, her mind was totally blank and the only thing she could think about was my voice, and my voice filled her head and compelled her to obey; in the robot state, her mind became filled with "code" that converted my commands into actions. She had difficulty explaining this to me (I'm not a computer geek, really, I just hang out with them!), but the main thrust was that her role-playing instincts kicked in and interpreted the robot suggestion in such a way that her headspace felt computerized. This was not my doing; my suggestions for the state mainly focused on the physical and outer aspect, with some bits here and there about being mindless and programmable. I have to say, it's a real joy playing with somebody who can creatively fill in gaps like that on the fly! :D

Interestingly, the "Master" suggestion faded immediately once we called an end to the scene. I went and gave her a clean-up trance anyway (after around an hour of cuddling and aftercare), but I found it fascinating that her shift in headspace was enough to clear a vocal compulsion without any help from a suggestion.

The thing I loved about this whole session was: surprise. I know I wrote at length about the kinds of surprises I don't like in my scenes - so it's perhaps a good thing that here, I get to note the kinds of surprises I enjoy. Creative interpretations of suggestions. The discovery that my partner is enjoying the scene in a way that I did not predict. A trigger popping up unexpectedly but pleasantly. Of course, the fact that I was dominating in this scene contributed to how well I took some of these - I may not have been as happy about the hair-pulling if I had been submitting; however, as a dominant with hypnotic control over the person doing it, I felt safe enough to enjoy it when it happened. Of course, it also helped that I trust Petal quite a lot - even in the midst of a hypnotically suggested role play, I felt confident that she would not hurt me and would stop if I asked (something I did not feel in the aforementioned "bad surprise" situation).

It's good to know that a safe, comfortable environment can make things I normally dislike more palatable - I hope to have a chance to submit in more situations where I feel more comfortable and less on guard!

Things I'm Sick of Seeing on Fetlife's "Kinky & Geeky"

I think it's clear that I'm kinky as hell. It should also be clear (in case it isn't) that I'm a class-A geek on several levels. I read Terry Pratchett and Atomic Robo; I watch Doctor Who and Kamen Rider; I own the entire DC Animated Universe and most of the DC Universe DTV movies on DVD; I play D&D; I collect toys (a lot less these days, but I still do). As it happens, I find that kink munches are an awesome way to meet more geeks, and since they also happen to be kinky, a lot of good friendships are forged based on multiple compatible factors.

Thus, it's no surprise that I'm a member of the Fetlife group "Kinky & Geeky." And sometimes I post on there, and often I read the posts there, and I find a lot of things that amuse me.

Two things that I'm really sick of seeing, though:

* "ZOMG! GEEKY WOMEN EXIST!! AND THEY'RE KINKY, TOO?!?"

Uh, yes. Yes, they do. Dunno about you, but I've managed to meet a never-ending stream of geeky women just by being a geek and doing geeky things I enjoy and talking to the women who also enjoy them. Also: treating those women like human beings who might just agree with me that certain things are awesome. In fact, I meet a lot more cis women than cis men who are into Doctor Who and Discworld.

To indulge in stereotyping for the purpose of a joke: if geeky women don't exist, who do you think is writing all that yaoi fanfiction? Most Fanfic Writers Are Girls, after all.

I realize that these threads are often just cheap tactics for creepy cis men to friend-request people, but there's this attitude behind that astonishment (and that tactic, for that matter) that just burns me.

A friend of mine (a cis female geek, as it happens) once said that I was one of the only guys (as in, single digits here) she'd ever met who looked her in the eye while talking to her. She is not even a particularly close friend of mine. You can say she's exaggerating, but if so, she made that particular exaggeration because on some level, that statement was true to her experience of the world. I cannot help but wonder how many of these guys, so astonished that geeky cis women exist at all, never met any geeky ladies because they were too busy treating women in general like members of another species.

Yeah. There are people other than cis males who enjoy D&D, comic books, Magic, or whatever other random thing. I really don't understand what is surprising about this. And please do something about the gratingly blatant gender essentialism and objectification inherent in this thinking. Thank you, demographic who will probably either never read this or deny what I have said.


* The webcomic Collar 6

OK, this one I probably don't have as much reason to rant about, because it's more about my personal ideals and views and passions regarding the kink scene. But: I HATE Collar 6.

I mean, I get it. It takes place in a fantasy world. However, the fact that it combines fantasy and reality in odd ways while indulging in stereotypes of BDSM...I don't know. I feel like it's fine to have a fantasy series about BDSM, but I don't like this one.

...but mostly I just hate the artwork. It uses that "all skin is shiny!" art thing that I see on a lot of comics, usually with the intent of making the characters look sexy. This shininess is a major pet peeve of mine - I don't understand how it's supposed to be sexy. OK, practically everyone in this comic seems to be wearing latex or leather, so at least there's a reason for it, but I have this deep-rooted association between "shiny anime-style people" and "sleaze."

[POSSIBLE BUSTED THINKING NOTE: I use the word "sleaze" to refer to pornography that is busted in mainstream ways - misogyny, male gaze, objectification, all of these are what I think of when I use the word. I apologize if anybody feels that my pejorative usage of this term demeans their sexual identity - I'm using it in a specific way to describe things that I feel should be less common than they are, and I encourage people to embrace the fluidity of language.]

Finally: this (TW: discussion of nonconsensual mind control that uses abuser's logic). Five women. One build. And if you guessed that that build is massive boobs and an impossibly thin waist, then congratulations, you get a No-Prize! I don't think there are any characters who even have different cup sizes in this comic.

Frankly, my favorite thing about the BDSM community is that I can get the hell away from a wider culture that seems to think that sex and sexuality are only OK for women who fit this mold. (If you want to read an awesome exploration of this subject, check out this blog post, which touches on body image/sexuality intersection eloquently.) I like being in a group where people of all ages, shapes, gender presentations, etc. can stand up and say: "I have a sex life!" There's a reason I don't link Collar 6 on the right-hand side of this blog, and why I instead point you, the reader, toward Nic Buxom: an utterly fantastic comic about BDSM that features a lot of different body types among its characters, both cis male and cis female (along with some discussion about prejudice toward gender presentation and fat).

So, uh, I suppose I should have a "live and let live" attitude toward this comic. There is nothing inherently wrong about it, from what I have seen - and the author has made at least one really admirable gesture in portraying aftercare and addressing the problems with some of the fantasy scenarios. I admit that I hate it mostly for its superficial aspects: its art, its use of generic attractiveness. I guess I'm just annoyed that the most popular webcomic about BDSM is one about a fantasy world and one that sticks to a tried-and-true big boobs/wasp waist model of sexuality and attractiveness. But, I can also at least recognize that Collar 6 has a big advantage over the webcomics I prefer - it updates regularly and doesn't take long hiatuses. I still say that Nic Buxom is a better read (and fully support the author's hiatus - she has a life!); however, where webcomics are concerned, regularity breeds popularity.

(After all, I'm still reading Misfile almost entirely because it updates five times a week on the dot, and it has never pissed me off enough to stop reading.)

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This has been a rant with feminist intentions, which may have busted aspects and judgmental attitudes.

Into the Dungeon with Lovely Petal

Well, for a little bit, I may be making a few posts in anachronic order. I wanted to get this one up simply because I wanted to make a post about some of the awesome people in my current area of residence. Yes, I've relocated - meaning that I'm now quite a long ways away from Georgie, Eve, Pet Ferret, Miomi, and all the other wonderful people I've blogged about before (and the other awesome people that I haven't blogged about). I miss them, and I still keep in touch online, and I'm a better person because of all the great people I met there.

Relocating didn't slow me down much, though. One of the handy things about doing erotic hypnosis is that not a whole lot of people do it. Any time I get out in the local kink scene - whether here or in my previous residence - I am the only hypnofetishist, and in fact the only person who has done whole scenes built around hypnosis. I meet some people who know quite a bit about hypnosis, even some people who have used it - but nobody else who specializes in it and performs whole sessions with it.

As such: I attract attention. The good kind! Once the "name and kink" icebreaker ends, I tend to attract a smattering of people who hear about the new, unusual fetish and react with "Oooh, shiny! Tell me more!" (It also helps that I always bring along my signature shiny object - the pocket watch!)

One of these people was Lovely Petal. She truly is lovely in all ways, and had been hypnotized before - once at a stage show, and afterwards by her then-boyfriend. As such, she knew ahead of time that she was really, really susceptible, and in particular that she was capable of amnesia. Both were very handy bits of knowledge!

In fact, the first time I hypnotized Petal was at a munch - I was still "the new guy with the new fetish," so a few people asked to see a demonstration. I asked for volunteers, and Petal's hand shot up like a bullet. :D As it happens, she had previously been hypnotized via a hands-stuck induction, so I had no problem re-inducing her with the "have the hypnotee recollect an induction" technique. The hands-stuck-together-and-unable-to-move induction then flowed right into a freeze, and then posing, and then limp arms. I played with these suggestions a little bit as each one came up, and she had a huge grin on her face the whole time. As a result of this, both of us were very excited to scene together properly.

Petal's husband, KenjiSama - another lovely individual :) - was on hand for the session as co-top. This was the first scene I ever did inside somebody's personal dungeon!

Petal's susceptibility meant that I could do pretty much anything for the induction - so of course I chose a pocket watch induction! I followed it up with a deepening patterned after the Elman induction (eye closure, progressive relaxation, arm drop, count down, fractionation), and gave her the trigger "Sleepy Pet Petal" to put her under.

After this, I began freezing her and posing her. She preferred being unable to speak while frozen, and she is the second person I have yet hypnotized who is capable of frozen expressions. So I could freeze a smile on her face as easily as a movement of her arms - very nice. Before taking away her ability to speak, I removed her top while she was frozen - and she commented on how weird it was not to be able to help out.

After that little bit of sexy freeze play, I took Petal even deeper - using my watch to put her conscious mind to sleep along with her body. In our negotiation, she told me that she loved being called "helpless," or told that she could not resist. Naturally, I used the mantras "Can't resist, must obey" and "I am helplessly hypnotized" to deepen her trance. To play with the amnesia, I gave her two post-hypnotic triggers: a "Pause" trigger for an unaware freeze, and the Jedi Mind Trick. KenjiSama was also able to use both of these triggers on her.

From there, the three of us had a blast with these two - Kenji and I could use the Mind Tricks to get Petal to do just about anything (kneeling; making her arms limp; making her put back the crop that I placed in her hand while she was paused; getting her on all fours for a spanking; getting her out of the rest of those pesky clothes). Interestingly, she interpreted the suggestion so that once she was Mind Tricked into a position, such as all fours, she would stay there until commanded otherwise - which was very handy for teasing her and reinforcing that feeling of helplessness!

The "Pause" trigger was great for the co-topping dynamic - Kenji and I could concoct evil plans whenever she was frozen, in addition to messing with her by moving around or placing things in her hands while she was unaware. Probably my favorite was removing her glasses. :)

Ah, and then the first main event of the evening. During our negotiation, I had mentioned the idea of trapping Petal's will outside of her body, leaving her body a mindless, empty shell to be ordered around and used. Her response to the idea: "May we please, pretty please?" I brought the watch back out - and this time I opened it up, and while swinging it, I suggested that she would feel her mind being sucked out into the watch, and that once her mind was completely in the watch, she would announce "My mind is gone." Once she did so, I closed the watch to "trap" her mind there.

At this point, Petal was completely blank - able to be ordered around, repositioned; all while glassy-eyed and expressionless and utterly unresisting and totally obedient. After playing with her like this for a while, I opened the watch and "released" her will for a while, to check that she was enjoying it as much as she hoped.

Once I confirmed that she was OK with moving on, I expanded my power over her in the empty shell state - I suggested that I could control what she felt, as well as what she did. This gave me the ability to make her feel pleasurable sensations at will.

Now, the second main event. Petal had said that she wanted to try coming on command, but she didn't know if she could do it. In an unrelated conversation, KenjiSama had mentioned a clicker that the pair of them had played with.

I gave Lovely Petal the suggestion that every click of the clicker would give her a surge of arousal and pleasure - but she wouldn't be able to orgasm until I ordered her to. So I began clicking...and clicking...and clicking rapid-fire...and clicking some more...Kenji took over playing with her physically for a bit, while I kept up the clicking at a steady pace. Petal slowly became less and less articulate as I ramped up her arousal - and finally, I asked her if she was ready to come, she gasped out a dreamy "Yes," and I gave the order.

I don't think I'm going to forget the look of sheer, unbridled delight on her face any time soon. :D

So afterward, there was some cuddling, and a lot of water-drinking, and some very fun conversation among the three of us (in other words: aftercare, it is awesome).

And this was not my last time playing with Petal...but that will be saved for later, mwahaha.