Public Play at a Slosh!

"So, every time she hears the word, she feels a hard spank on her...which side was it? I think it was left."

"Um...I can't remember. Use it so I can see."

"Order."

"[wince] ...Right side."
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So, the other night I went to a slosh in town with Georgie, Eve, and Miomi. Georgie and I had gotten in touch the day before, and she told me that Eve was giving her a set of protocols and commands for the evening. Not one to be upstaged, I asked if she would like any hypnotic triggers for the evening - and she enthusiastically wrote up a list of requests.

First, I popped over to Georgie's place to refresh and reinforce her existing triggers as well as add some of her requests. [Lots of "re" words in that sentence.] I triggered her into subspace, commanding her to repeat the mantra "I am a docile, obedient pet" to deepen her submission.

Once that was done, I used her trance trigger and worked on creating a more mindless trance that we could use for amnesia and sensation triggers - she wanted to try a "time stop" freeze trigger that left her unaware of what happened while she was frozen, as well as some more complex behaviors that she would forget afterward. Well, the unawareness and amnesia parts didn't quite work out - but we got a new state out of the attempt, a state where she was a mindless puppet with no thoughts, no feelings, just obedience. I ordered her to bring me a glass of water, and watched as she sleepwalked through the task and brought it to me. She didn't like this state as much as her subspace trigger - she felt less like she was compelled to obey and more like she had nothing better to do than follow my orders. The subspace trigger also gave her more room for happy-go-subby kind of feelings. Still, the state seems like it will be useful for other suggestions we've thought of doing down the line - and her preference gives me a few ideas, too. >:)

The puppet trance (as we ended up calling it) was handy for setting up some sensation triggers. After trying out a few different ones, I settled on giving her a mild pleasure trigger (usable by Eve and me) and an open trigger for feeling a hard spank (as detailed in the introduction of this post). She wanted it open, so I figured I'd use a word that would come up naturally at a slosh, what with the waiter taking everyone's orders and all the doms talking about the orders they give their subs. Didn't seem to work out quite like that (the conversation in the intro was started when Georgie and I explained to Eve and Miomi why we were disappointed with the waiter's word choices), but she and I nevertheless had fun all night with the trigger.

First, though, we continued the prep session with a few brief scenes: I froze her and put her in a nice glamor pose [...I messed up the photograph of it, though], then dropped her into subspace. I had her give me a shoulder rub, then put her on all fours for a quick spanking. Brief, but very, very hot for both of us. :D

Anyway, at the actual slosh, I spent a little bit of time giving Georgie her orders and quick bits of pleasure, showing both triggers off to Eve. Eve herself was responsible for putting restrictions on Georgie's clothing and speech, although I did not get to see how much that played out. I did get to watch when Eve had Georgie go to the bathroom and discreetly hand Eve her panties upon returning, which Eve pocketed for the night. After that, the two of them headed out to join the smoke-break crowd while I stuck around inside to chill with Miomi and meet some new people.

One of those new people was a lady relatively new to the group, who shall be called Joan, who was slightly skeptical and very curious about hypnosis. I explained some of the various applications, perhaps not terribly well, before the conversation moved on a little. Once Georgie and Eve came back inside, though, I brought Georgie over to give Joan a practical demonstration. I froze Georgie, and posed her while explaining that I could move her around like a doll or action figure - and Joan exclaimed that it was totally hot. I then bound Georgie's hand to the table we were sitting at to show the bondage applications. The two of us expounded to Joan about hypnotically induced orgasms and other cool bits...and Joan asked if hypnosis could be used to inflict pain, too. So I gave Georgie an order, and Joan's skepticism faded a lot once she say Georgine jumping in her seat at the word.

Georgie then egged me on to try a handshake induction on Joan, but I found the double-talk surrounding the negotiation very uncomfortable - I've obviously had a few fails with the Ericksonian handshake, and wasn't feeling very confident about it. So, once Joan got fed up with the two of us talking in circles and demanded to know if she was getting hypnotized or not, I went with the handy-dandy hands-stuck induction on her. Her face was very animated as I froze her hands together, with a few visible grimaces of effort and/or surprise when she couldn't pull her hands apart. I hit my stride with my patter and speed-relaxed her [how's that for a bizarre contradiction in terms?], then, since she seemed so enthused by watching it, froze her in place using that same patter, having her relaxation turn to stiffness, and posed her a little so that she could get a feel for it.

I then brought Joan out of trance, and she was quite happy with the experience - she was fascinated with how she felt like she was going along with what I said, but nonetheless she could not move when I froze her. Georgie and I introduced her to Eve before the night was over, and the three of us headed out (Miomi found some other people to hang out with to end the night). The possibility of a play party down the line was brought up...that would be awesome if it ever occurs. :)

So...that night rocked. Unfortunately, I had an early morning the next day, so I couldn't stick around Georgie's place afterward while she and Eve checked out some outfits to incorporate into our play. But then, that play will be happening, so I'm quite looking forward to it!

Switching with Miomi

Life has been crazy lately. Crazy awesome, but still crazy. So there hasn't been much time for sexytimes, and even less time for blogging about them.

(Technically, there has been time, but other things have kept me busy and feeling like I shouldn't be blogging.)

So, in the time that I haven't been blogging, I had an utterly excellent session with Miomi. We met at a munch - she was new to the group and very shy, so my friends and I invited her to join us for a lengthy hang-out afterward. 'Twas good fun, and she and I got in touch later to schedule a hypnosis session.

Since she's a cuddly one, I went with a progressive relaxation induction with cuddles and petting. Great way to do an induction, since it's effective, simple, and has some neat dominance overtones to it. She was a great example of Lady Ru'etha's declaration that "depth is bullshit" - Miomi didn't go incredibly deep, but she was in a highly suggestible state that allowed for all kinds of fun.

Miomi's a furry - wolf fursona - which gave me some imagery to play with. I prefer to tailor my suggestions, terminology, and dominating style to the person I'm domming - and having something like the furry "fursona" gives me something to guide my choices. I played into pet/master gestures the whole session. I enjoyed the way she whispered "Mmm...scritches" every single time I tickled/scratched her under the chin, like it was automatic (I think my love of hypnotic triggers speaks to why I would find that hot). Building off these gestures, I channeled it into some petplay, turning her into an obedient wolf cub through hypnotic suggestion. It was more of the same, with the addition of her words being replaced with growls as she padded around on all fours...she liked it a lot. :)

[Just an aside: what is the DEAL with the hate-on for furries?! I don't see it as much around Fet, but, for crying out loud, it's just people who like anthropomorphized animals. And the furry fetishists are seriously no weirder than other fetishists...I'm turned on by blank stares, monotone voices, people holding poses for a long time, and all kinds of odd things, you can't tell me that's any less odd than being a furry.]

Miomi let me try something that I had never gotten to do before: making a non-ticklish person ticklish! I've wanted to do this ever since I first made a ticklish person feel nothing while getting tickled. She's not completely un-ticklish...but tickling her normally requires some deep digging into her sides. Anyway, this gave me a fun way to dominate her, pinning her down with a burst of tickles after triggering her ticklishness. I also did an awesome ropeless bondage scene with this, where her arms were bound to the bedposts and her legs were covered by pillows - each pillow hypnotically suggested to be too heavy to move. Then I swooped in for the tickle torture and whatever other pleasurable avenues I chose to take. >:D

At one point, I also gave her a hypnotic ball gag. She was impressed by how well she felt it holding her mouth open as I took the opportunity to play with her...

Aside from these novelties, the session had a lot of the fun tricks that I've done with Georgie and Pet Ferret: vulva-hands, freezing, robot. Miomi didn't seem particularly attached to the hypnosis effects outside of the unique sensations and petplay...she said that being hypnotized felt like just another way to be submissive, and just as good as feeling subby through other means. So, due to her blanket go-ahead in the negotiation, I demonstrated a lot of things to see if any of my favorites struck her fancy (she's quite curious, and was up for anything I threw at her), then focused on sensation-oriented suggestions like the ticklishness trigger and the vulva-hands when that seemed to come out on top.

The vulva-hands scene was quite excellent, as it happens. Miomi registered it differently than Georgie does - she felt the sensations on her palms duplicated on her clit, rather than experiencing her hands as erogenous zones. It still led to her panting and moaning facedown into the bed as I worked both hands to create a nice, powerful doubled sensation. I might have to work on really mapping out this whole hands = vulva deal so that I can mix up the pleasure I provide with it.

Toward the end of the session, the control of the session shifted toward Miomi. As she put it, she had such a fantastic time subbing for me that she repaid the favor by letting me get all subby.

(How's that for a reversal of the stereotyped dynamic...I've read chances to dominate described as rewards in stories and in people's perceptions of BDSM. Here, subbing was seen as the position with the greater capacity for pleasure, and therefore the more rewarding position between a pair of switches.)

Now, when I'm domming, I tend to focus extensively on giving my partner pleasure. Subbing for Miomi helped me articulate one of the reasons why I do this: when I am receiving a lot of pleasure, "in control" is one of the last phrases I'd pick to describe myself. In this case, with Miomi scratching my neck just right (she found a sweet spot that I didn't even know existed...), I was a curled up little ball of submissiveness who couldn't manage much more thought or speech than a meek "Thank you, ma'am." My eyes closed naturally as I curled up to her (I mentioned in my last post how much I enjoy blindfolds - lack of vision reinforces that feeling of losing control, and also helps me focus more on the stimulation that I am feeling), and then her hot breath against my ear, and the gentle nibbles and the licks, drove me into incoherence. I simply felt all need to have control slip away from me, and I melted against Miomi.

I guess I have to emphasize here how much my sensitivity affects the way that I process pleasure. To me, feeling pleasure can be absolutely overwhelming. Intimidating, even. For example, I love a good low-key backrub, but a more advanced one (like the truly amazing ones Georgie does!) will have me thrashing in ecstasy, and I'll need to ask for a break after just a few seconds. This is probably why I am the first person to list "pleasure torture" as a fetish on Fetlife - the intensity of some pleasure is so great for me that I have to ask for mercy, and prolonged pleasurable acts (such as hot breath on my ears) feel wonderful and scary at the same time. Miomi really drove this home with the skilled way that she worked my neck and ears - any hint of dominance collapsed under the onslaught of sensation.

(So...I guess this is my subspace? Triggered by intense pleasure, leaving me meek and reactive while I close my eyes and don't speak much.)

She slipped into the role fluidity really well, too! It sort of went back and forth as each of us would do these little dominating gestures to shift control one way or another. For the climax of the session, I put her back under and gave her the suggestion that her desire to get topped again would grow the more she topped me, until she was absolutely ready to go back to subbing. Then I indulged my subbiness for just a touch longer than she wanted, before taking back firm control with her trance trigger and bringing her to her knees. >:)

(Can't say that this suggestion affected much...it basically played into how the two of us were feeling anyway...)

So, to sum up: fun, fun session. Also probably the single longest one-on-one erotic hypnosis session that i have done. Miomi enjoyed it muchly - and I got an even more delicious taste of the subby side of things, which helped me better articulate some aspects of my sexuality. That's pretty much cool outcomes all around!

Quotes from a Threesome: Out of Context

I discovered the following things last weekend:

1. I enjoy a little light bondage.

2. I'm getting used to/into giving the whole impact thing.

3. I am too ticklish for my own good. (Georgie is jealous of my insane sensitivity.)

4. As I suspected, I am really into being blindfolded.


Now I'm going to list some quotes from the last Spiral/Eve/Georgie threesome out of context:


Georgie: Yeah, you just walked in on a total dyke scene.

Eve: SIDEWAYS. Not upwards.

Spiral: "Is it OK if we do, like, affectionate shit?"
Georgie: ...did I seriously say that?

Eve: ...OOOOOOOHHHHHH, that was a racial slur!

Georgie: I feel like a mechanical bull. With tits.

Eve: My nipples. Population: Spiral.

Georgie: I'm not hearing any name calling!


Yeah...it was a blast. :)

Threesome, Pheromones, and Velociraptors

SO, as I alluded to at the end of my demo report - after the demo, Georgie, Eve, and I headed back to Georgie's place for some further fun, which resulted in my first multiple-person encounter of any kind.

I don't know that I'll be able to write very coherently or sexily about the whole thing, so I won't. I didn't get into my uber-cerebral topspace, so I didn't have the kind of attention to detail that I had during the other encounters I've blogged about. It was also a lot less linear than my other encounters...this was much less about doing a bunch of hypnosis scenes and more about having a whole lot of fun that happened to involve lying around with very little clothing. Hypnosis was not the focus of the fun throughout the night - rather, it was a way to facilitate a few choice scenes. I used it to heighten both Eve's and Georgie's sensitivity; I brought back Georgie's vulva-hands so that Eve and I could evenly divide the task of pleasuring her; we did a scene where the two of them felt everything that happened to the other; I used freeze triggers as a way to escape getting tickled; Georgie continued to absolutely love her submissive headspace (Eve tried it out, but, being a switch and a brat, didn't go as happy-go-subby as Georgie did). Otherwise? The whole night involved a ton of cuddling and cheery fun.

This kind of hazy and playful atmosphere is what led to "velociraptors." Georgie getting clever as she and I worked over Eve led to my complimenting her on her initiative - and Eve following up with a Jurassic Park "clever girl." It became our all-purpose silence-breaker.

Eve also introduced me to all-out brattiness. Georgie got very into her subbie-ness, but Eve playfully fought me at every turn. I had never played with a bratty sub/switch before - this was a lot of fun and a nice change. Eve being a switch was, itself, an awesome part of the whole dynamic - she and I would take turns domming Georgie around, or I would enlist Georgie to top Eve, or Eve and Georgie would gang up on me with tickles, or we would all just go nuts finding ways to make one another feel good.

There was a lot of experimentation all around - I got to try out spanking (hurt my hand getting up to Eve's pain tolerance), really got the hang of hair-pulling, got a tiny taste of getting topped. Georgie had a lot of fun taking advantage of my incredibly high sensitivity - whether through tickling or through shoulder massage (which led to my exclamation, "I feel like I'm having an orgasm in my back!"). I also tried dishing out verbal degradation - I didn't find it as unappealing as I thought I would, but I much preferred watching Eve do it to doing it myself.

Then there was the biggie from the night - at least to me, on an intellectual level. As mentioned in the demo report, Georgie has an aversion to cissexual men that she credits to some kind of pheromone/chemical reaction. [Interesting note: she said that she doesn't count me as cissexual. I take that as a compliment!] Say what you will about whether it actually is pheromones or whatever, that's not terribly relevant. Anyway, at some point in the evening, Georgie said that she wished she didn't have that reaction so that she could cuddle with me. The two of us had the same brainwave at the same time, which she voiced: "You could use hypnosis...!" So I gave her the suggestion that my scent/pheromones/presence would not affect her adversely, that she would regard me as a woman on that chemical level. "You smell like estrogen!" she squealed as she got close. At her request, I let this suggestion stick at the end of the night.

I keep thinking that there has to be some kind of ethical ramification to using hypnosis to become the exception to somebody's sexual orientation. She found me appealing on an aesthetic/intellectual level already; the only intent of this suggestion was to make physical contact comfortable for her. And it absolutely would not work if she didn't want it to work. Still...well, I don't know. I feel that Georgie and I have strong rapport and good communication, so I think I'm on solid ethical ground here. Maybe I've just read too many stories on the EMCSA about innocuous suggestions turning disastrous.

Overall - very enjoyable night. We all had a great time and agreed to do it again. Next time, Eve's going to tie me up...oh dear.

Hypnosis Demo = Epic Succeed

...well, maybe not epic succeed, but definitely a good time, and I like using that phrase.

As is, Pet Ferret chose to back out of the demonstration - after considering it, she decided that she just wasn't ready to open up to strangers that way. Things got more complicated when Georgie had to mangle her schedule to get to the demo on time. So, no two-person scenes happened at the demonstration, although a lot of cool things did.

The turnout for the demo was predominantly women, which I find fascinating from a gender-theorist perspective. Hypnotism in general (not just the fetish) is often gendered as a feminine area (whether it's the sexy assistant brought up to be hypnotized on stage, the damsel in distress controlled by the evil villain, or the enchanting hypnotic seductress). It was intriguing to see that reflected in the attendance.

I started the demonstration with a lecture on what hypnosis is, trying to address all of the common misconceptions while providing realistic expectations of what is and is not possible with it. I also tried to address as many safety and ethics issues as possible (I skipped some in my nervousness, which bugs me still - at least they got addressed in the handout that all of the attendees received). I felt that I did a great job in being personable and knowledgeable, in answering questions and not letting my penchant for tangents get the better of me too often.

I brought Georgie up for the demonstration. She had given me permission to use more physical contact during the demo - so I cuddled up with the intention of adding to her relaxation during the reinduction process. I used the pocket watch here for dramatic effect - she described the process to me afterward by saying that she felt performance anxiety going under in front of an audience, but ultimately decided, fuck it, and relaxed for me. Unfortunately, she had some trouble getting quite as relaxed as she had last time - after I brought her back up, she stated that my proximity distracted her because she had an aversion to the smell of cissexual men (even clean and nice ones like myself!). That got a nice laugh out of the audience, at least! I rolled with it, moving myself away to allow her greater comfort.

I moved the demo into a demonstration of triggers, first freezing and posing her for the audience before putting her back under. The next routine was inspired by this blog post, as per Georgie's request - both of her hands were turned into proxies for her vulva et al. I brought up a mutual friend, Eve, to help me work her over - this got a laugh as she told Eve to go harder and then doubled over in pleasure. After finishing, she clapped her hands together - only to get a jolt, since the suggestion was in effect until she went back under. I resisted the horrible urge to make a "self-tribadism" joke, on the grounds that probably nobody would have gotten it.

I finished off Georgie's part of the demonstration by repeating the same bondage + orgasm scene described in the two posts about her trial session. I'm told that some of the onlookers had very amusing reactions to this, but I sadly did not notice because I was way into my hypnotist's trance.

Next, I brought up Pandora, who volunteered to be hypnotized without prior preparation. The two of us had met up and chatted a few days prior, and had discussed ideas for the demo over Fetlife. She's a LARPer, had done meditation, and enjoyed being a sub - so, as I told her, there was no chance in hell she would not go under well. I was right. >:) I put her under with the Elman Induction, helpfully pointing out the steps to the audience along the way.

Since she had that LARP and acting experience, I decided to differentiate her section from Georgie's by focusing on role play suggestions. I first turned her into a kitty, and she gave some very nice purrs as I petted her, scratched her neck, tickled her chin. Next, she became a bimbo - her friends in the audience stared wide-eyed as she started twirling her hair and staring vapidly. She didn't get too into the role, though - as we discussed in front of the audience when I brought her out. She commented that the role just wasn't comfortable, and I took the moment to note that playing to a hypntoee's preferences will always result in a better scene - and playing against them will be unsatisfactory for all involved, to say the least.

[Honestly? I'm not even INTO the whole bimbo thing. I just thought it would be cool to demonstrate a role play suggestion, and I happened to be familiar with that one since it's so popular in the hypno-community. She was cool with it in theory, even if she found it not-so-appealing to try.]

I finished Pandora's section off with another orgasm demonstration, since she really wanted to have one. I tried giving her the same type of suggestions as Georgie, only to find that she didn't respond to the idea of increasing sensitivity at all. So, I switched gears and gave her the suggestion that she would instead focus on a memory of a truly outstanding orgasm, savor the memory and bring those sensations right into the present once I tapped her on the forehead. Indeed, she began shifting and breathing heavily as I focused on building up her arousal (as opposed to her sensitivity), and then, as she nodded that she was ready, tapped her forehead and brought her to climax.

I continued answering audience questions for a while then, addressing some very cool discussion about different methods of trancing, different possibilities for play, and other bits of info about the whole hypnotism process.

I finished things up with a demonstration of instant inductions. ...at least, that was the plan. I brought Eve up for another cold induction, and proceeded to epically fail at doing a handshake induction. Twice. Then I tried to give her a butterfly hand induction, but she didn't go under - she did feel something, though, as if she was about to go under and then snapped awake. I commented that my nervousness probably got in the way of my timing, and that instant inductions were never my forte to begin with (they're useful now and then, but I find a slow, gradual induction both more rewarding and more effective on most occasions).

Mercifully, my goof was not recorded on the video of the demonstration. I think I would die of embarrassment if I had to watch that again when playing the video back for my friends.

I had a blast afterward, making small talk with all of the different people who came - with the previous back-up demonstration subject who found that she was able to come at the last minute, with the submissive of one of my pen pals from the community, with someone I recognized from a non-kinky context, with someone I had seen around at the munches and never got to talk to, with Pandora's boyfriend to muse on how her personal quirks affected her going under. I very much played the social moth, flitting from one conversation to the next depending on how fun it looked to join in - I do that sometimes. Like I said - a blast.

All in all - I think I did a pretty decent job. Not a great job, but a decent one! I'm proud of it, especially since I'm quite a bit younger than most of the people who come in to do presentations for the group.

Once the event was over, Georgie, Eve, and I headed back to Georgie's place for some additional fun...at least some of which will be the subject of a future blog post. :)

My Writing Style on this Blog

After writing two posts in one night (posting three), I noticed a lot of things about my writing style that I felt I should comment on.

First, in following the tradition of Musings of a Hypnosub, I try to describe the scenes I do to make them hot and sexy for the reader. Certain things get emphasized over others in order to increase the hotness of certain things, some things are left more ambiguous because I don't feel comfortable sharing the details, etc.

Secondly, I realize that I dwell quite a bit on my own goofs. I'm not a fan of the image of the infallible hypnotist, and I also want my writing to model some things for young, starting hypno-doms (model the way I think through the ethics of any given scene, model the flexibility needed to adapt to suggestions that don't work as planned). I realize that I may be giving myself a little too much credit...but I hope that's balanced out by the fact that I'm willing to write honestly about how much I mess things up.

~Spiral (who will really seriously have to stop blogging so that actual work can get done)

Volunteer 2: Georgie, Perspective Flip

Georgie posted her own account of our session on Fetlife, and gave me permission to cross-post it here:

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In preparation to be demonstrated upon at a Bloomington Kink event next Friday, Spiral_Turquoise gave me my first live hypnosis session, for which I can't thank him enough! This entry is just to record and relay the experience in partial detail. I know that Spiral_Turquoise will also post about this in his blog, so it will be interesting to read how our viewpoints diverge and converge. Since I am not completely familiar with all of the terminology used in hypnosis, I might occasionally mess up. Feel free to correct me, as I'd rather learn than continue saying the wrong things!

We met at my house and chatted for a bit about subjects kink and vanilla. I should also mention that I had one of my friends present in the room, since I had never met Spiral in person before. My friend was fascinated by the process in general, so he had fun keeping an eye on us while playing Mindcraft.

Spiral started off by trying to hypnotize me using a handshake, which only made me giggle. His explanation of why it works on people was fascinating though! Then he had me follow a pocket watch with my eyes, eventually leading to full body relaxation and me counting myself down into a deep trance. He used a quick awakener (12345 awake) and instructed me while under that I would go back under at the count of 54321. He tried this while I was standing up, and it didn't work. But when I sat back down (now in a much more comfortable chair), he did it again and I went under. He then demonstrated some rope-less bondage like having my hands stuck to the headrest of the chair (not comfortable at all, but they were stuck!) My reaction to each of these feats was "That was awesome!" He then demonstrated freezing, which was especially cool and surreal when he was posing my head and arms in different positions, like an adult-sized action figure.

The pièce de résistance, though, came in two parts. First Spiral put me into an extremely submissive headspace, and added to that feeling by having me forget my name and replacing it with a name of my choosing (pet was what I decided on). Then he woke me up but kept me in trance and in that headspace, and had me stand and kneel on command. When asked my name, I simply stated, "pet," and when asked if that had always been my name, I shook my head. When asked if I could remember what it used to be though, my given name seemed sort of like a wisp of smoke in my mind that I couldn't grasp. Very cool! He then had me imagine that my wrists were bound to the ceiling by a cable, and proceeded to build me to an amazing orgasm with no physical contact whatsoever. As I got closer and closer to climax, my head was actually sagging against my upright, rope-less bound arms, Thinking back on it now, I can still hardly believe it! I felt totally aware of everything, maybe even more aware in some ways, but there was absolutely no desire to not do whatever he was suggesting. The whole thing was a lot of fun, and we chatted afterwards about different possibilities for the demonstration on Friday. At least one other person has volunteered, so there might be some two person scenes, which I would find fascinating to experience.

Thanks again to Spiral_Turquoise for making this happen, and if you happen to be in Bloomington, it would be worth your while to stop by and see him in action!