Thursday, June 28, 2012

Online Sessions, from the Subjects' Viewpoint

Those of you who also follow sleepingirl's blog, you've probably noticed that she just posted an account of our first private play session.  Her writing is hot, the session was good, and if you follow this blog then you probably care about reading about me.  Especially from the other side's point of view! 

And all of those things apply to what else I'm posting - Sluggish Twitch's account of our first play session (and her first time being hypnotized)!  So I'm going to bow out, and allow you, dear reader, to read what both Twitch and sleepingirl have to say about me.

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I'm a Transformer! XD

Hai! Okay so this is my account of being hypnotized for the first time. Thank you Spiral, btw!

Okay, so starting out I wasn’t exactly sure if I was going to be able to go under, but boy am I glad I did! The induction was completely and totally relaxing. See watching the videos and things online and seeing the inductions, I always wondered what the person was feeling when they were told to sleep and their head just slumped. It was a part that honestly fascinated me, to just see them instantly slump. So when he told me to sleep, and my head slumped…it was awesome. Haha. I’m just so giddy at how instantly it happened. Being in the trance was so euphoric. Like nothing I’ve ever experienced. I was diagnosed with ADD, so my mind is constantly jumping back and forth from one topic to the other. I’m surprised I don’t have a permanent “TILT” sign on my forehead. But in this blank, mindless state, it was so calming. I was completely relaxed. He and I had talked about different things that interested us, and the robot stuff REALLY interested me. That and the freezing, mantras, I saw him do a call and response with another lady, which peaked my interest. I had a friend there with me, kind of like a security blanket. It aided in helping me feel safe and relaxed, so I was able to feel more comfortable.

I don’t think I’ll do a play by play run-through. But I’m definitely going to talk about the experience as a whole, and highlights. :D Some of my favorite times were when I was the robot. That’s something that’s super sexy to me, so it was QUITE enjoyable. The deeper I went in, the more like a robot I became. I noticed my own voice becoming monotone and robotic, noticed my movements changing. It was quite the fun experience. I liked the mantra bit, as well. It helped me really relax more and helped me become more obedient, and willing to obey commands. I also like the responses I was told to give, as well. “Yes, master.” “I hear and obey.” ^.^ Describing the feeling of going in and out of being a robot to being April was…so neat. When I was April, and my robot self was activated, it felt like…like if I were full of sand and all of it just drained out like sand draining from an hour glass, but not as slow. My whole body was tingling, relaxed, blank, when my robot self was activated. We did some call and response, which was SUPER hot for me. It also helped me go deeper into trance. I really enjoyed being commanded to do certain movements. At one point I was allowed to be aware of everything that was going on while in my robot state, and not just the mindless state of mind. Which was really great, being aware of what I was doing, but unable to stop myself. Doing movements and things, but not being able to stop myself. That feeling was so niiiiiice.

Which brings me to another one of my favorite parts of the evening. Freeze! Lol. During the times when I was April he had me freeze at different points, in the middle of doing different actions. At one point he caught me in the middle of licking my lips. Haha. He allowed my friend to move my limbs to put me into different poses while I was frozen. (Like picking my nose! Haha.) There was also the time-stop bits. Which are quite amusing. Similar to freeze, but I had no idea how long I had been frozen, and had no recollection (at the time) of what had happened while frozen, but yet still able to be posed. Those were fun. ^.^ My friend definitely had a grand time during those moments. One minute I was sitting on the couch, the next I was standing up. Haha. Talk about interesting! It was like I was a life sized, plus-sized Barbie doll. Oh! Another one of my favorite moments while being April was one of the freeze moments…I was told to freeze, and he left me like that for a few while he talked to my friend. Oh boy! :D Quite enjoyed that one.

He did some triggers that would make me feel like my hair was being pulled just the way I like it, and one that when spoken would make me feel a cut being done on a part of my body. Both of which are HUGE turn ons, for me. :D After everything that happened that evening, it was safe to say that I was thoroughly satisfied with my first session.

From a mental stand point it was so great to be able to just be a shell, completely submissive and willing to obey. Which is not something that I usually am. I love the helpless feelings I had during certain parts. There are still parts of the session that I just can’t seem to recall, but I’m okay with that. I just loved the being aware while in the robotic state. That feeling of obedience…and knowing that even had I not wanted to do it I was going to do it anyway because that was the command given. Granted I wanted to do those things, but still. There was a definite…I guess…I don’t know how to put it..Directive? Desire? Not sure on the correct word, but I just wanted to please, and to be obedient, and do exactly what I was told to do. Hearing “Good girl” or “Good robot” was exhilarating.

Afterwards, when I was brought out of trance I felt as giddy as a fat kid in a candy shop with a free pass to everything. Thoroughly enjoyed that session, and hopefully there will be more to come! I’m definitely planning on learning how to do it, as well. :D During the whole session I felt tingly all over. Even afterwards. I can’t properly describe the uplifted feeling that I’m still feeling the effects of. Wee! XD

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